about my religion

All the war between good and evil ,and life after death sound ridiculous to me.
Now and then I hear people telling me stories about their religious experiences and arguments, I ignore them.

I have never embraced my religion or practice my life to secure a place in heaven.
But when all things in my life fail upon me,
and everyone turns their back one me ,
the only thing that save me from throwing myself away is my Christian belief.

As I grew up,
I become very skeptical about love, friendship, hope, and all the beauty they emphasize in the media.

In this harsh reality, all the good and beautiful things that I hold on to come from Him.
I have my trust in Him.