Since I have been having very bad headache for weeks,
I went to Medical Center last week.
The doctor said that I have rotten teeth. 
There is a severe infection in my teeth , and I have to either
take it off ,
or go for surgery which happen to be quite troublesome and expensive.
The worst of all, keeping the teeth may affect other healthy tooth.
He ask me to consider the options.
Well the question is,
is the teeth really worth hundreds dollars surgery , all the pain, and the risk of getting other tooth infected?
Or should I just get rid of it for good?
Think about it.
think about the more important battles in life.
Battles to fight for rotten friends, rotten lover, or rotten job,
those which may affect other aspects of our life.
Should we fight for it , or get rid of it?
:P
I am going to the dentist 
Too many spam e-mails inside my mail box , i keep on missing the important ones.
OR maybe I just can not distinguish between the real one and the junk.
I have both stainless steel jewelry and white gold-diamond jewelry in my jewelry box. Sadly, I no longer remember which one is which,
I don’t know what to keep and what to throw away.
I can’t tell when people mean what they say or when they are talking trash.
Well i dunno what to write really, just need to bitch about how my life goes.
i feel like something inside me is crying these past few days , for whatever reason.
i used to believe that i was special . i guess we all do.
I believe that the world is filled with filthy evil people , but I am different.
I was brought to this world to save the world.
Then I turned 22, and realized that i have never make an attempt to save the world.
It was still full of filthy people , and i have become one of them.
I learned how to accept the filthiness of this world.
We are just people , and we need to survive , and we battle constantly.
Meanie meanie people are those in need to battle for their own survival.
They have their own reason.
and so do I.
I understand.
I know what to do.
I ask myself a lot of question on what i am doing.
I guess for me , life doesn’t matter at all.
It’s like that.
I don’t mind anything in life.
I used to believe that a new handbag , or a piece of cheese cake , or getting an A, or being with the one I love can make me happy.
But then money comes , money goes, shoe comes , shoe goes. Friends come , friends go. Love comes , love goes.
I don’t feel happy at all.
Life is just an illusion, they say.
I guess we all know that.
Still, I have never known that this stupid illusion can be so devastating.
I am dying while living, and I am only 22.
What a waste.
