Since I have been having very bad headache for weeks,
I went to Medical Center last week.
The doctor said that I have rotten teeth. 
There is a severe infection in my teeth , and I have to either
take it off ,
or go for surgery which happen to be quite troublesome and expensive.
The worst of all, keeping the teeth may affect other healthy tooth.
He ask me to consider the options.
Well the question is,
is the teeth really worth hundreds dollars surgery , all the pain, and the risk of getting other tooth infected?
Or should I just get rid of it for good?
Think about it.
think about the more important battles in life.
Battles to fight for rotten friends, rotten lover, or rotten job,
those which may affect other aspects of our life.
Should we fight for it , or get rid of it?
:P
I am going to the dentist 
Too many spam e-mails inside my mail box , i keep on missing the important ones.
OR maybe I just can not distinguish between the real one and the junk.
I have both stainless steel jewelry and white gold-diamond jewelry in my jewelry box. Sadly, I no longer remember which one is which,
I don’t know what to keep and what to throw away.
I can’t tell when people mean what they say or when they are talking trash.
Well i dunno what to write really, just need to bitch about how my life goes.
i feel like something inside me is crying these past few days , for whatever reason.
i used to believe that i was special . i guess we all do.
I believe that the world is filled with filthy evil people , but I am different.
I was brought to this world to save the world.
Then I turned 22, and realized that i have never make an attempt to save the world.
It was still full of filthy people , and i have become one of them.
I learned how to accept the filthiness of this world.
We are just people , and we need to survive , and we battle constantly.
Meanie meanie people are those in need to battle for their own survival.
They have their own reason.
and so do I.
I understand.
I know what to do.
I ask myself a lot of question on what i am doing.
I guess for me , life doesn’t matter at all.
It’s like that.
I don’t mind anything in life.
I used to believe that a new handbag , or a piece of cheese cake , or getting an A, or being with the one I love can make me happy.
But then money comes , money goes, shoe comes , shoe goes. Friends come , friends go. Love comes , love goes.
I don’t feel happy at all.
Life is just an illusion, they say.
I guess we all know that.
Still, I have never known that this stupid illusion can be so devastating.
I am dying while living, and I am only 22.
What a waste.
A world filled with love is a wonderful sight.
Being in love is what’s heart’s delight.
But that look of love isn’t on my face;
That enchanted feeling has been replaced.
As I walk this land of broken dreams,
I have visions of many things
But happiness is just an illusion
Filled with sadness and confusion
What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that’s now departed?
I know I’ve got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Maybe
The fruits of love grow all around
But for me, they come a-tumblin’ down
Every day, heartaches grow a little stronger
I can’t stand this pain much longer
I walk in shadows searching for light
Cold and alone, no comfort in sight
Hoping and praying for someone who’ll care
Always moving and going nowhere
What becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that’s now departed?
I know I’ve got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
Help me
I’m searching though I don’t succeed
For someone’s look, there’s a growing need
All is lost, there’s no place for beginning
All that’s left is an unhappy ending
Now, what becomes of the brokenhearted
Who had love that’s now departed?
I know I’ve got to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I’ll be searching everywhere
Just to find someone to care
I’ll be looking every day
I know I’m going to find a way
no thing’s gonna stop me now
I will find a way somehow
I’ll be searching everywhere
Do you know which one is me?
I learned to strive for my own happiness at any expense.
I stop worrying about disappointing or hurting others.
I learned that I deserve to be happy.
My ex-boyfriend ask me to take this test .
You are The Star
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realized
The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you’re a dreamer, but you’re not the only one.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
