on faith

Do you know what will you feel if someone loves you very much ?

If you think  about it , actually you will feel nothing

But what will you feel if you think that someone loves you very much, even if it is not true?

It will really bring a lot of changes in your life.

The same thing applied; what do you think will happen if the God we believe in is not real God? Actually nothing will happen, it doesn’t matter. The world will go on as it is. On the other hand ,  what will happen if He is really God? Nothing will happen as well.

But what will happen if you believe that He is God?

It will bring a lot of changes in your life.

It is some kind of belief that will give people a reason to live , and a hope when they have nothing else in their life.

That is why when people ask me whether I really believe in my religion. I told them that I do, and maybe… just maybe, I don’t care. I have lived years believing that He is the ultimate truth. I get used to all the prayer, hope and encouragement.And I really don’t know how to live without them.

Amazingly ,  all the beautiful things in my life happen because of my faith in Him. So even if the religion is putting some deceptions on me, I will just swallow them all. It’s like believing that my mom loves me and that yours love you whatever happen. We could never be able to tell if it’s true. But I assume that she does, and actually the assumption saves me from doing a lot of stupid things.

Our belief, not the truth, is actually the one shaping our life.

As for me, I believe that my faith in my God makes my life better. So I choose to hold on to it. Even though some parts of it are really goes against my conscience , I stick with the core faith.

Well in the end a lot of things don’t really matter. It is our beliefs that shape our world.

So I just choose wisely what I believe in.

Counting Down on Life.

When I was a little kid , I used to think that I were special ,
and my presence in life is significant.

Many kids believe that they are going to be super heroes who saved the earth.
Then they grew up and learn that they can’t even do their own math papers.

When I turn 22 , I stop believing that I am special.
Ever since , waking up every morning is like counting down to death.
I keep on counting and waiting, watching my days pass by .

And another day goes by , and another ,

And life goes on as it is.
Empty and Sad.

Until one day I get tired and counting and decided that I should do things ,
just so that time will pass by faster.
Maybe I can do something interesting while waiting.
Maybe I can go and make the waiting place a little better.
So I start to learn to  enjoy myself while counting down.

Everything in life is just an illusion . Things that we do while waiting and counting down.

The only truth in life , sadly , is death.

And only when we realize that, we could learn to treasure our only real possession : the continuation of a psychological state.

OUR SOUL.