I want to go back indonesia and not working in singapore , really..
but then it means that dad has to pay the tuition grant.
Even though he said that it was his obligation to pay for my school fee..
and he is okay with paying….
I feel guilty to the fact that he has to pay so much money for me..
I could not stop thinking that I am wasting my parents’ money.
So maybe I should work in singapore….
but its kinda difficult to find a job nowadays specially my grades are really bad,
the economy is bad
and I don’t really have any outstanding achievement.
haizz…..
suddenly I feel that I am really useless… stupid stupid me….
all i can do is waste money and talk crap hahahaaa… ^ ^
So what are you guys going to do after graduation?
Its been a while … I already forget how it feels to eat alone…
In fact I forget how to eat alone… or how to walk and shop alone…
the sad thing is… I started to forget how it feels to be alone and not to have someone around me telling me that I am loved . How miserable was I then!
I forget how it feels not to have a prince charming who always there to take care of me and save me.
I started to think that I am strong , and I don’t need this…It seems easy.
Its not.
There will always be moment when people start to take others for granted because they are always around. And its easy not to be thankful for friends , lovers , attention and affection.. until one time something reminds of that petrifying lonely feelings.
I almost forget how depressed I was before I had my boyfriend, my friends , and my dog.
How foolish.
Since I didn’t study at all last semester and was doing part time job,
buying a dog , joining a pageant competition,
and busy dating my dear dear alvin…
as expected.. my grades was really bad.
my cgpa is now down to 3.96!
I am no longer second upper , yayy!
The good thing is , even if I got C for all my subject this sem ,
I will still get second lower!
and practically… there is very little hope that I got 4.2 for this semester
since I didn’t do anything for my FYP for the whole semester.
In other words… I can just play the whole semester and not caring about studying!
yayyyy!~
Well i mean… i got 3.9 after not studying at all , if i study seriously…
I might just get 4…
I don’t feel like studying hard just to get 0.1 more…
I’d rather take my little dog for a walk and go shopping.
Lalalaaaa….~~
