A little praise for me

Even though I work extra hours without extra money incentive .. I was very pleased because they told me I did a fabulous job!

Ohhhhhh……  I would do it for free…. :D :D

They said that women are weak when it comes to praises…. oh well…..

on the crossroad

Apparently.. as my university year is ending , I become less motivated to go to school.
Is it because I never really liked my major?
Maybe. Maybe not.

I keep on thinking that there is something more than the life I am living.
My heart is craving for something ..  like there is a big hole inside of me that is insatiable.
Each activity that I do , all the excitement just vanished the moment I reach my room.
I always feel that there must be something more than doing what I am supposed to do and
spending money on over-commercialized happiness…

My boyfriend said that two main purposes of human life are to grow and to give back to society. That is why he does volunteer work while I devote my life to my own vanity.

Am I growing?
Am I giving back to society?

Are those really two things that will fill this gap inside of me?

What do you guys think?

Feminism in Action

I attended a world bank conference on Economic Opportunities for Woman in Asia Pacific recently.

At first  I have no intention of attending the conference.  But a friend of mine said that they need an event helper  and the payment is really good. So I decided to take the job.
Apparently… I get more that what I expected! I got to meet very interesting remarkable ladies that are willing to share their stories. And as a female , I realized that there is something that all of us  have one thing in common : none of us think that women are inferior to men.

There is a reason we call this place mother earth
They said that practice makes perfect .. so after God practiced creating human by making Adam , He created Eve!

It was an amazing experience , really. I would do it for free.

Tentang Ospek di Indonesia

Di Indonesia ,  SMA dan Universitas mengadakan Orientasi alias OSPEK setiap tahun di mana junior baru bakal “dididik ” oleh senior dengan cara dibentak , dipukul , disuruh push up  dan sebagainya.
Alasan mereka ” Kita membentak kamu untuk melatih mental kamu , karena kalau kamu sudah kerja ( in real life  they say)
kamu akan banyak menghadapi orang yang kasar terhadap kamu”

I found it ridiculous.
Selama ospek , meskipun aku panitia , aku sama sekali tidak terlibat dalam acara bully mem-bully.
Instead , aku pergi ke ruang PMI dan tidur sepanjang hari.
Dan aku tidak pernah sekalipun ikut ospek.

Suatu hari , karena aku sudah sangat tidak tahan aku pergi ke salah satu guru pembimbing ospek, pak H ,dan bilang
” Pak , saya sangat tidak setuju sama kegiatan ini ”
lalu guruku bilang
” Jadi kamu maunya apa , anna? ”
aku bilang
” saya sih berharap tahun depan kegiatan ini dilarang”
pak H bilang
” saya juga tidak setuju sama kegiatan ini , tapi yah ini sudah termasuk dalam sistem kita ,kalau kamu mau menghentikan ini kamu harus berhadapan sama OSIS , guru pembimbing , kepala sekolah dan sebagainya”

I was dissappointed.
Sejujurnya , setelah aku kerja , baik sebagai waitress , IT atau apapun,
aku belum pernah sekali pun bertemu sama bos atau pelanggan yang membentak bentak aku.
They respect me as a person , even though I am young and inexperience and I might be doing low level job.

Ketika pelajar disiapkan untuk menerima tindakan kasar dan bertindak kasar ,
mereka akan cenderung berpikir bahwa perlakuan seperti itu wajar.

It’s kinda sad that people start to expect other people to treat them without respect and thinking that it is normal to treat others like that.  Everybody , no matter what their jobs are , no matter what status they have in society ,deserves to be treated with respect and kindness. It’s too bad at the early days of education , the people with status and power abused the so call ” weaker members of society” in such way.

Actually , only those who are disrespectful towards themselves who yell  and used harsh words towards others.
In my opinion , the activity is only encouraging the culture of abusing power and bullying junior.

Aku masi sangat sangat berharap kegiatan itu dihentikan.

Searching My Soul -Vonda Shepard

Ive been down this road walkin the line
Thats painted by pride
And I have made mistakes in my life
That I just cant hide

Ive been searching my soul tonight
I know theres so much more to life
Now I know I can shine a light
Everything gonna be alright
Ive been searchin my soul tonight
Dont wanna be alone in my life
Now I know I can shine a light
To find my way back home