dealing with insecurity

Posted on March 4, 2009 by anna-jun.
Categories: Uncategorized.

I remember on one day , I was sitting in a couch , crying while talking to my counselor.
I told her that it is very difficult for me to deal with insecurity,
I always feel threatened by everyone around me.
Many times I ask myself , am I better than them?
If the answer is no, the feeling of insecurity will creep through my heart ,
and turn it bitter. For me , the whole world seems like a competition stage.
I wanted to change and be able to walk down the street
and stop seeing others as competitors.
I wanted to establish an identity which can not be taken.
I promise myself that someday I will be able to stand up on my own ,
and irregardless or what other people think of me ,
or my superficial qualities , I know I am content and loved.

Here what she said to me:

“Well people do feel insecure sometimes..
I do feel insecure about my life in times. I look at my friends and think that they might be earning more money than me.
But after a while , I remind myself that I am feeling insecure and try to chase away the insecurity.

Many times when we see only the small  picture , we tend to place ourselves in certain level . And it makes us prone to insecurity because there will always be people at the higher level.
But what we need to know is that social level emerge due to our contribution to it.
Each and every one of us play a role and contribute to the way the world is today.
If you are able to see yourself as a part of a bigger picture ,
you will be able to play your part willingly . Even though sometimes
your part require giving up your ego for bigger purpose.”

Let us play our part in society and do what it takes.

I am content and loved.

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Comment on March 7th, 2009.

Anna, semua manusia itu diberi Tuhan kemampuan dan talenta masing2. Kita tidak perlu membanding2kan dengan orang lain, karena semua talenta itu hanya anugrah Tuhan. Some people can be better than you, and you can be better than others. Try to see your life in this way, I believe the feeling of insecurity is not needed at all.

Siapa yang diberi banyak, akan dituntut banyak… Back to the Bible, the answer is all there

Comment on March 9th, 2009.

siapapun yg tulis di atas… well…

gw ga percaya sih sama orang ada talenta dan bla bla bla…
I think its not true. i am sorry to say

gini yah.. kenapa Tuhan kasi orang talenta yg berbeda, apa alasannya coba?
katanya Tuhan mahaadil , ngga logis kan?
kenapa ngga semua orang sama aja ?
Apa alasannya kita lahir in a good family jadi bisa friendster-an sedangkan orang lain lahir lumpuh dan miskin?

Karena Tuhan pinginnnya begitu?
That is a very very evil God.
hahahahaaa ^ ^
think about it, really.

Comment on March 9th, 2009.

terus lagi yah… karena aku ngga tau siapa kamu , tapi kynya anak NTU.
kamu tau ngga sih bahwa meski kamu ngga ngebandingnin , society tuh bakal terus ngebandingin.

Nilai kamu sekarang itu hasil perbandingan sama temen temen kelas kamu.
kalo kamu dapet A , it means ada temen kamu yg lebih jelek nilainya dari kamu.

ketika kamu cari kerja , orang bakal bandingin lagi.
siapa yg will fit better to the role?

OUR SOCIETY IS BUILD BASED ON COMPARISON.

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