I think I am …..

I think I am depressed again…

Well practically  depression is a state where a person keeps on having suicidal thoughts and constant low mood , even without anything trigerring it.
She said it was genetically inherrited and triggered by unsolved mental wounds. ( sounds dramatic huh?)
Oh well… I don’t really have any mental wounds except that fact that people used to tease me the ugly fatso who blabbers a lot.
But it’s okay to be plump huh? Real women have curves ya?
And I consider blabbering as communication skills .

I have been out for a while , and now thanks the occurrences of too many unpleasant surprises and changes  , I had to say.. It’s back again!

But I remember the counsellor asked
“Why do you think you get depressed ?”
I sobbed and answered “I don’t know ….. maybe I eat too many fish?”
She said ” No I don’t think so , why do you said so ?”
I said ” I found that if I eat too many fillet o’ fish, I will have low mood the following week, is that related?”

It was not because of the fish , she said ; but food , sleep, and exercise does affect depression.
Not enough grain consumption and physical activities could be harmful…

Oh well , at least now I know exactly how to handle the stupid thoughts and insecurity.

My fridge is full of bread, cheese and fruits.
My jogging shoes are ready.
And a dog is always better than Prozac.

So if next time I get another depression blow , I’ll get a Golden Retriever.
or a Poodle.

Or maybe I just mate Abbie